Keeping Hope

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What is it about the rain that it seems to wash my soul, along with the landscape? It rains and I’m suddenly motivated to clean and organize and set things right. The Vibrunum in the front yard received an extensive haircut but I managed to hold off on the Hydrangeas that have refused to bloom in two years. I adore Hydrangeas. Obviously we’re not getting on well, however, and the rain makes me decisive. They need to go.

If I blame the rain for this piercing sense of direction, what is it that keeps hope alive? My experiences and memories as I trip-trop through life fan the flame….and bring desire for tomorrow. This collection of sensations and perceptions are stored far from my loping shears. Imagine if I went foraging through my soul with this same kind of tenacity – snip, snap, snipping away at this precious pile of moments. You see, the courage for the days and weeks to come is fueled by knowing that I am loved, seeing my breakthroughs in the past, believing I am safe….free to fail.

Hope fuels courage.

Hope’s flames are fanned in the smallest furnaces. I’ve been hearing a woodpecker in my yard. I suspect that he was responsible for drilling the substantial hole in the bird feeder. But I was fond of his contribution, nonetheless. He makes me smile as he rat-a-tat-tats. The poppies I’ve recently planted are just beginning to come up. Soon they’ll swish their fancy skirts in the breeze. I caught a glimpse of a robin yanking a worm from the ground …half its bird-weight in worm! What a catch! Seriously now, that’s akin to finding a pair of lovely heels on sale! Or  arriving early for a library book sale.

Hope. It’s not joy. It’s hope. It’s the visceral belief, a sub-conscious knowing, that my contribution matters.

Yours does too.

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2 thoughts on “Keeping Hope

    JoEll said:
    July 4, 2009 at 1:20 pm

    This is so super true, Samantha! I love it. Do you think you could send an expanded version of this to http://www.finelines.org? I just think it needs a bit more expansion and would be perfect for the literary journal.

    It is right on.

    Much love, my dear friend…
    J

    Mom said:
    July 9, 2009 at 12:31 am

    Give me the connection between hope and sense of direction. I got lost.

    Hydrangeas respond to soil type. Maybe they want something that your soil doesn’t have. Poor things. I’s sad to think they’ll lose their heads over a basic need!!

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